i really don’t understand how you can ignore me for so long and then get upset that i don’t want you? honestly “but you would rather see me fall” and all your SHITTY lyrics all make me CRINGE. just move on for god’s sake, it’s your own fault. and good for me i realised i can do way better. which says a lot because there’s only one other person i look back on and think “what the fuck was i thinking??”

apparently my jew hair is not asian enough for this japanese dye that’s supposed to lighten it…i left it on for an hour and it’s only subtly lighter…nothin like the anime girl on the box…i still refuse to go to the hairdresser.

was feeling like nothing was going right today with so much wasted time and being intimidated by people when trying to sort out the stupid little details of my project, getting home late, couldn’t get bman out of my head etc etc the usual

…and then i found out that my brother’s friend died and realised he has had a far worse day. death hits me hard enough i can’t imagine how he must feel.